My Ramadan Diary: 9-30-2007

30 09 2007

Subhan’Allah, I can’t believe Ramadan is nearly over. We are now approaching the last ten days of Ramadan. I have to look back and think, “What have I accomplished? Was it enough?” I don’t think we can ever do enough. We often go into Ramadan with many goals and end up exhausted halfway through and fail to meet most of them. Then, we feel guilty and disappointed with ourselves. I have been guilty of this myself. However, I have come to realize that all I can do is try and Thank Allah that I was  blessed with another opportunity and that I accomplished as much as I did. Truly, It could almost always be worse.I haven’t been fasting the past few days. Insh’Allah I will be able to fast in the next couple days.  It’s really lonely when everyone around is fasting and I’m not. I don’t like to eat in front of a fasting person. I remember when I worked smelling and seeing my co workers eating used to make fasting much harder. 

But anyway, we’re going into the last ten days now.  Insh’Allah we still have time to accomplish much more if we put our mind to it. No time like the present. In fact, the last ten days is when the Prophet(saw) would strive even harder in worship.

A little something on the last 10 days of Ramadan (insh’Allah will post more on Laylat al-Qadr in another post):

Praise be to Allaah, the Lord of the Worlds, and peace and blessings be upon the Trustworthy Prophet Muhammad and upon all his family and companions.The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) used to strive hard (in worship) during the last ten days of Ramadaan in a way that he did not strive at any other times.

Muslim, 1175, fromAa’ishah). Among the things he did were secluding himself in I’tikaaf and seeking Laylat al-Qadr during this time. (Al-Bukhaari, 1913; Muslim, 1169). In al-Saheehayn it is reported from the hadeeth of ‘Aa’ishah (may Allaah be pleased with her) that when the last ten days of Ramadaan came, the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) would stay up at night, wake his family and gird his loins. (al-Bukhaari, 1920; Muslim, 1174). Muslim added: he strove hard and girded his loins.

Her phrase “girded his loins” is a metaphor for his preparing himself to worship and strive hard in worship, more than usual. It has the meaning of “rolling up one’s sleeves” to worship (i.e. getting ready to make a great deal of effort).

It was also said that it was a metaphor for keeping away from women and abstaining from sexual relations.

The phrase “stay up at night” means that he would stay awake, spending the night in prayer, etc. It was reported in another hadeeth thatAa’ishah (may Allaah be pleased with her) said: “I never saw the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) recite the entire Qur’aan in one night, or spend a whole night in prayer until the morning, or fast an entire month, except in Ramadaan.”

(Sunan al-Nasaa’i, 1641). The wordsstay up at night” may mean that he spent most of the night in worship, or that he did not stay up for the entire night, but he did that at the times of ‘Ishaa and Suhoor, and other times, in which case it would mean that he stayed up for most of the night.

The phrase “and wake his family” means that he would wake his wives to pray qiyaam. It is known that he (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) used to wake his wives all year round, but he used to wake them to spend part of the night in qiyaam. In Saheeh al-Bukhaari it is reported that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) woke up one night and said, “Subhaan Allaah! What tribulations have come down tonight! What treasure has come down tonight! Who will wake up the dwellers of the apartments? There may be women who are clothed in this world and naked in the Hereafter.”

(al-Bukhaari, 1074). It was also reported (in Saheeh al-Bukhaari) that he (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) used to wake ‘Aa’ishah (may Allaah be pleased with her) when he wanted to pray Witr. (al-Bukhaari, 952). But when he woke his wives during the last ten nights of Ramadaan, this was more persistent than at other times of the year.

The fact that he (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) did this indicates the importance he attached to worshipping his Lord and making the most of this special time.

The Muslim should follow the example of the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him), for he is the best example, and he should strive hard in worshipping Allaah. He should not waste the hours of these days and nights. For we do not know, perhaps this time will never come again, for the spoiler of pleasures, i.e., death, which must come to all men, may come and snatch him and his life will end; then he will feel regret at the time when regret will be of no avail.


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4 responses

1 10 2007
adikbongsu

Jazakillah Umm Yusuf for the hadith🙂

and yes you are right in that we should leave it to Allah to decide whether our Ramadhan has been fruitful enough or not…for Allah is Most Compassionate and Merciful.

Insya-Allah all our good deeds, prayers and supplication has been and will be accepted and our sins forgiven.

Insya-Allah….

1 10 2007
UmAbdurrahman, "Blanca"

Mash’Allah sis, I am glad to know that your Ramadan has been what you have expected it to be. I think we all go through the Ramadan spirit experiencing many reflections. I think these are important as we all move ahead in developing ourselves into stronger believers. I too have had my share of reflections. May ALlah help us in our endeavors.
Really intersting and beneficial what you have posted on the last ten days.
Certainly something I will return and reread. Actually everything you post has been very helpful. I don’t need to do a search cause I know Sis Umm Yusuf will have it taken care of it for us.🙂

Jazak ALlahu Khair.

2 10 2007
hijabhaven

Masha’Allah what a beautiful post. It emphasises the most humility one could demonstrate during the holy month and at the same time reminds us that there is so much more space for improvements!

insha’Allah all our prayers and worship (As little as they may be) will be accepted by Allah!

2 10 2007
Unique Muslimah

I ALMOST got a panic attack today when I saw that it’s the last ten days of Ramadan. I feel like I’ve done NOTHING because I was on my period for the first 10 days :S So it’s like I just started ramadan later than everyone else, wails!!!!!!!

I don’t want ramadan to end, I feel like it’s this express train that’s running from me and I’m running behind it and I’m trying to get on but I’m too behind.

*wails*

I wrote a poem on my blog about how I feel. God help us!

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